i wonder a lot about life

i wonder a lot about life, how it progresses and where it can end up taking you. like how did i spend 3 years loving k-pop? how did i get so obsessed with it? why am i obsessed with the beastie boys now? i sometimes wonder about a lot of stuff like that and how the mind works, its a very interesting topic. today was my first day back to college and it was, weird? i had a spanish and literature class (both i'm very excited about)and they were pretty alright, i ended up dropping my compsci class i was going to do today but thats because i did NOT want to use microsoft office, also i hate coding TT. i know i do html but its different because thats something i find fun, something i cant say for any other language. other than that, i think this year is going to go pretty swell, i have a lot of hope for it and it's going to be fun, all the subjects im taking i have a strong interest in. i hope i can get my life together this semester in comparison to the other semesters, i think ill be able to do that just fine with enough push, which will be the case. im very excited about starting this blog too, i feel like i have enough in me to start milking posts again since its on a website i love / easier to use. ive been exploring my past interests these last few days and its been really fun to do, most notably sonic and my dreamcast. i am super excited even thinking and playing my dreamcast, i forgot how much i love that console and how advanced it was for the time and how cool the entire console is as a whole... i can go on and on about it. ive been going through the games i have currently and hoping i can play them more this year, i love the shoot em ups even though i am absolutely horrible at them but i am in awe at the visuals, absolutely amazing. i love the sonic games of course, Sonic Adventure 2 will always remain my favorite game ever. i like the fighting games too, theyre fire but theres too many of them and i guess that makes sense, because of the fact the dreamcast has the naomi chips. ive been listening to east coast hip-hop more as of late and its just amazing, i have a goal to listen to 150+ new rap albums this year and im already a couple of albums in but im hoping to get more. shout out to new york and atlanta, some of the best rap ever. ive been falling out of kpop as of late, i have a wishlist i want to complete but once i do, it might be a wrap for me outside of the groups i like, which might suck for the kpop page but ive been editing that page nonstop for nearly 2 years, i need to take a break from it. with that being said, the love and admiration i have for LE SSERAFIM has stayed the same, i dont think anything will bring me down from them, as well as ILLIT. it feels weird, but i think im ready to move on and go back to my sega fanboy / weeb / rap fan self as its where i feel most comfortable and like myself. i like kpop still but i feel better i guess. i love collecting though so i dont think this'll change much but yeah, as of right now im in a weird spot lol. i hope i can fully revert back though, i miss geeking out over some obscure nerd shit because no one else would, i feel more individualistic and free without kpop crushing me down, if that makes sense, im finding my place on earth and hoping to stick with it, as im not in a terrible mindset anymore. i love everyone and everything i interact with in my daily life, and i dont want anything to stampede that when i take my interests so seriously. im done typing for the night, i hope everyone has a great night, peace!