late night

its currently 2:30 am as of writing this, man i gotta start writing these posts at a better time. i was looking through a lot of the early posts on the old blog and it reminded me a lot of how life was a few years ago and how much i loved to write these blog posts. insane to me i kept up the grammar for that long instead of typing whatever comes straight from the dome like i do nowadays. i mean i always did that but that looks much better and maybe a little presentable. i used to write all those posts on my phone, i don't know how i did that since i always type long-form stuff on my laptop REGARDLESS of what it is. i hate typing on my phone lmao. out of the 59 posts on their, 44 of them were written on my phone (fun fact: the laptop im typing this on now actually is the same one i used on that blog - feels full circle) but reading the blog made me realize why i posted to begin with - to get away from the negative stuff in my life, have the opportunity to escape and talk about the things i love a lot, i forgot about that. i forgot that i can just post and talk about the things i like to a very annoying extent and be happy about it. that's what happiness is, being your true self. i am not this cool mysterious dude who makes cool art on the internet because of julienet - i am a complete dweeb and loser who loves talking about beastie boys, le sserafim, japanese media and i will and want to take pride in that!! that's what i consider cool!! talking about stuff that's dope!! so having an opportunity to do that is so cool and something i don't think about a lot cause "durrr i don't like something anymore so im gonna have it going on in my head for weeks." that's lame!!!! i have so many cool things to talk about but i don't because im sooo sad and negative about something so inessential. i remember starting julienet with the impression of "oh ill make it all mysterious and cool because the art i do is minimalist" and thats just, so lame to me. i want my art to be expressive of what i am and what i like and i think im doing good at that. for the 1 year anniversary of julienet i thought it would be cool to release all the previous edits ive made over the past couple of years as they show me and who i am as a person and just drop the "posts art and say nothing" shtick ive been doing. its really lame. i also used to do that on my personal Instagram too - post every few months and then say nothing but thats so lame. do you know how cool it is to post whatever you want? i wish i felt something like this ages ago, there's a lot of shorter posts here because i am NOW just warming up to the idea of posting short thoughts too as opposed to something long-form. i do somewhat miss the serious tone i was doing with the og blog when writing about stuff, but when its off the cuff stream of conscious writing, i don't think it matters. i did use proper capitalization for the LE SSERAFIM review and thats how i like it. whatever grammar for this stuff but proper for little reviews and whatnot. i should probably delete the articles page on the julienet site cause there's like one article and i can just put that on the directory page, but its whatever. this and tumblr are some of my favorite sites ever because i can literally just post whatever im geeking out about and there's BOUND to be someone geeking out over the same thing. its really cool to see people still use these websites - keeping the best and most pure forms of social media alive and it makes me really happy. having this medium is really nice. 

it's currently 8 in the morning as of typing this - i fell asleep writing this and teetered off near the end lol. i have nothing more to say but i hope everyone has a great day! thank you for reading me ramble, means a lot.